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Another new day, another bunch of memories that seem to haunt me. Haunt me as it was all a bad dream. A dream I could never run away from. A dream that would scare the shit out of me. The memories where breathing seemed the most difficult thing to do. Where life was just a joke and differentiating reality and bad dreams was out of my capacity. It was instance of my life where the fear of losing you or believing in you, not able to live without you zoomed with those sleepless nights. The nights where sleeping was not necessary to have dreams. Those were the nights when I created hopes inside me to be with you even after you hurt me, broke my heart into those pieces I never recollected because of that silly hope that you would change for me. That silly belief that you loved me. That faith that love made wonders happen.

But the reality check swooped in my life the day realization struck me. The realization that love was nowhere to be seen. it was all the possessiveness and addiction that you had towards me. You made my life hell in confusion. You made my heart ache in the way I couldn’t ever think, but feel and suffer. The only thing that I could ever accept was that you were not the one for me. It was all assumptions in my foolish romantic mind that we were meant to be. You were that jerk who didn’t care about anyone but yourself. The person who didn’t think twice before forcing your body on me. The person who didn’t even realize after touching me against my wishes that you were wrong. What you did was cruel and harsh for a girl who was crying helplessly in front of you.

The hate inside me flamed like a fire in woods. Slow, but destroying everything inside. You spread into my heart like a virus and decayed my love that once used to bubble in happiness. You emptied my bottle of hopes like it was juice you wanted to throw for years, but didn’t get opportunity to. You killed everything I had inside me, everything that was human. So no when people ask you, you say she just got irritated of me. But the truth is, you tried your best to push me away, when I was helplessly trying make this relationship work even after you did what you never should have. Now I am too far to return back to what I was. Happy.

I don’t know how much time would it take for me to get away, but you sucked hard time out of my life. I wish I could go back in time and rewind to the part when I met you and never meet you.